The Hardest Thing Is To Say Goodbye.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Yeah didnt blog for long again. sorrie about it :D
anw feeling sad again? yah.
many things just rush thru my mind and start to think of many things in the past.
Currently listening to some emo songs haha..
Its always good to sometimes reflect and give ourself some private time to cool dwn n recall on the past and perheps get ourself changed if we did something wrong.

One thing I realise few years back, which is to WAIT.
Waiting allow ourself to prove us right, to prove many things.
"Wait long and its yours"
Do you people believe in that? haha.
Many things happen in life, in our journey..
but waiting will nv go wrong. wait, wait and wait..
wait and ppl will accept u when the time is right.
At a RIGHT time.

Ppl backstab u, and ppl sabo u.
So what?
You cant stop ppl from doing it but u can prevent it from happening.
However, I still have not learn how to prevent such thing from happening.
Maybe when ppl backstab u, its a good chance for u to prove yrself right to prove dat u r innocent.
We cant stop ppl from how they want to think of us, we can only prove to them that we r RIGHT.
I hav been waiting for many things, and yeaa, waiting do works.
Many things came back to me but u know dat the feeling wont be the same..
1.So wad if my di come cal me kor now? does it prove anything?
That only shows dat the friendship is not strong even and ppl can backstab easily (in the past)
2.So wad if she come back to me n we patch back?
will the feeling still be the same?
even if she patch back with me now n still like me,
but do I still love her like before?
The answer is NO.

We can always look for another girl dat can really sit into our heart forever.
But wad bout friendships? brothership?
Once u lost them, you will nv get them back.

Ytd was at 433. Freston and his friend Teddy came down to meet me n we slack tgt with the usual 433 ppl .
Played ping pong. N they studied.
Darling came dwn very late, at bout 6plus and and. how i hope he didnt come dwn.
Or at least, come dwn alone???
(Darling, not dat i dun like to see u n dun like u to come dwn.)
Darling came dwn with his friends, his good friend.
I saw someone.
The friend that came along with Marcus is someone i used to care so much for.
Maybe I did not show it, maybe he didnt know. Maybe cause ppl backstab me.
But whatever it is, its the past.
The past can never come back to usual.
WE r like stranger now. Looking at each other but didnt talk.
Not even a HI. (which usually any 'new faces' that came dwn to 433, we would usually say 'Hi')
But this time round, I did not. Neither did him?

Confuse.. Confuse. .
Di, I will still WAIT.
I know u r cool- wont look back. wont care bout such bro bro thingy.
But I will still WAIT, the answer may be straight forward but I dun care.
I just wanted to WAIT.
Hopefully one day we can say 'HI' to each other like friend? Cuz most likely we wont be brothers anymore.Right?
Even just being a friend and I would be happy.

Darling, thanks for helping me.
But I think dun bother to help le.
The answer is straight forward, I knew the answer.

爱我的人和我爱的人

♥5/11/2009 09:44:00 PM