The Hardest Thing Is To Say Goodbye.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Hmm.. Today didnt go school again.
Lazy....
Had lunch with shi yuan and 1 of his friend
came home to use the comp awhile den went dwn to 433 at 4plus
was hoping to at least see Ian but too bad he left before I reach.
He got something on today, so yea.
Played Ping Pong again with Michelle and Samion :D
haha. had match with them - so cool. NICE.

At about 7 Marcus came dwn with JONATHAN :D
Althought its quite 'shy'?? (dunno wad word to use)
but at least I gain something tonight:D
Thanks Marcus darling... Really thank you alot.. Love u.
When Marcus asked me "Did u disown him (Jonathan) before?" in front of Jonathan
woah. dat feeling sux. damn shy. l0ls.
but I can swear that I nv had the intention of disown-ing him at all!
Not at all man!

After that, was emo when talking about this. But nvm.
At least before Jonathan went home, he said "Bye" to me.
woohoo! You know how precious that was?????????
A 'Bye' that I have waited for almost 2 years?
Haha... Yea yea yea! Love it!
I tell u. I keep smiling like 1 idoit sia.. l0ls. haha.

anw. tml he is going to court le..
I sincerely wish him all the best and hope dat nth will happen to him.
Seriously nothing!
I still need time for him to give trust in me, not as a friend but as a kor:D
Sometimes I m thinking, how good m I.
M i a good kor? A good friend? A good partner?
I noe i m not. I m trying to improve myself.
But he has to have the time for me to prove myself
so God. Please. Please help Jonathan and I pray that he wont have to go in.
Please. I sincerely Pray for It.
Jonathan, good luck to you. Nothing will happen to you. :D Dont worry.

After which, Marcus told me that Jonathan only treated me as a friend,
yea I understand. I can understand dat after 2 years, Its hard to come straigth to be Brothers.
I will Wait. Like I say I believe in Waiting.
But God, really got to give me this chance by praying that nothing will happen to Jonathan.:D
To the God that he Pray to.
If he is a free-thinker, then I would pray to my God to help you.
Its sad. Its sad to hear that he only treat me as a friend
But its ok right. hahaha. at least he say bye to me? hahahaha!
I swear I will treat u better if God give me the chance, and u give me the chance.

I wanted to talk to Jonathan on the phone before he go court tml morning,
but he is alr asleep.
Yea Marcus is real. No Fate.
No Fate.....

All the best, Jonathan. We r waiting for u at 433
Dont worry, you will be alright.
God give everyone of us ONE chance

Jonathan, kor miss u.

♥5/13/2009 07:30:00 AM